Thought I'd update my blog for a lil' while. Great that tomorrow is a Public Holiday so I don't have to climb outta my bed so early. Feeling a bit exhausted today..

Anyway I thought I need to clear away the dark clouds that have been haunting me time and again in my mind. It's about my personal thoughts. Can I say that I'm 99.9% a thinker, not a talker? Well you see I'm probably that type of person where I don't tell people straight in the face using mean or harsh words, unless there MIGHT BE an exception. I didn't really have a bad day. I only begin to feel emotional when there was a pouring rain earlier today. It's like, my emotions and mood will just go down out of the blue especially a heavy downpour and I was in the bus stuck in a small jam for a short while. But thank God, I wasn't alone throughout the bus ride today. Your presence brings me great comfort. :)

Sigh. Ya know, time flies? And I guess my readers have pretty much drifted away from my blog huh? Time and again, I've been emphasizing on how time passes so quickly. I know, but I just couldn't stress this enough. This kinda fucked up feeling of me will always return to haunt me and it makes me feel so emotional about things. Things that, I endear, I love, and those memories that have already been embedded so firmly and deeply in my mind, someone I care for, someone who makes me happy; someone who affects my mood and makes me sad. All these little things are a part of my life.

Sometimes I thought of the events that had happend from last year until now. The second half of year 2011 till now, I feel things changed. I certainly DO NOT wish to use the word "Change", but I do feel the changes, or rather I see it too. Maybe it's a good change, that well, it's good to see everyone is back to how we used to laugh at jokes and make fun of one another in a hilarious way. But on the other hand, time doesn't stop for human beings on earth and things between us.. Maybe you and I have left words that are unsaid. Maybe it's better to stay like that.. Maybe not. I don't know. I know it's kind of weird for me to feel like that because after all, I believe things might work out. If only there's a solution to this, that we both know, we wouldn't have spent so many nights stressing over things. The future? No clue at all. Many times I nearly took the chance to talk about the future, further studies and stuff, but I lacked the courage to speak about this. Because there didn't really seem to be a time that you mention any of this before, which leads me kind of thinking I might not have the right to ask you stuff like this. It's like, you are right in front of me, so close to me yet I dare not talk about this. Well, actually part of it is because I'm just too afraid to know the truth.

The distance between us, so near yet so far. It's an everyday encounter, but I choose to keep the thoughts to myself, as of now. I just hope to treasure the rest of the year till graduation with ya and the rest. I don't want to screw things up, because you are just so important to me.