Some days when I just have doubts 'bout myself

Once again I'm stuck within myself, feelings, thoughts, emotions and everything else. Teenage years, have been really wonderful because you share joys and laughter with your friends and family, yet it is also the times that brought me reveal so much of my negativity as well. I've been negative about my studies, as always one of the biggest headache that's been giving me. I'm pretty sure I'm not the only one who felt like this. I don't want to ruin the only path in my own hands. This is probably one of my  biggest milestone in my entire life, from high school to a college? But I know my limits, to put it bluntly I practically suck at everything I do. I pick up skills at a much slower rate than any others. I wished I could do so much better when I'm learning new things but I just... feel rather disappointed with myself. I wished I could have helped out more.

The "Time" is nearing. It's pretty scary for us, maybe not to those who have already mapped out a beautiful pathway for their own future. It seems like I haven't been putting effort in giving some serious thought about my own. I thought about it before and it gave me such a throbbing headache.

To me it just seems like everyone else is moving on with their lives while I'm stuck here in a hole that I'm unable to climb out of.

There are so many things I want to retweet about whenever I come across certain tweets that's like so related to how I'm feeling and whatsoever. But I just can't, I don't want to put myself in a danger zone, does it count as "danger" in the first place? I can't find a good word to describe it. Anyway, I'm probably just that kind of person where I'll bottle up thoughts and feelings till my emotion can no longer take it and hit the brim of the bottle then I might just spill the beans. I've been learning to manage my feelings 'cause I don't want to be one who will shed tears so easily anymore. Even if I do, I'd probably just hide my feelings.

 I'm sorry that I've been rather quiet lately.

I'd love to talk but I just really am trying to suppress my feelings.

Not to worry, I told myself that I'll be fine eventually, even if I'm not, I have to.