Seeing all of my friends making plans for their future, I suddenly feel ashamed of myself. This is embarrassing. When we had a small talk with our lecturer today and once again I've been questioned by her, "What are your plans after graduation?" Out of the sudden, I felt a tinge of sadness in me. It's saddening. When you ask me about my plans, I'm not talking just about my own plans, I have to look out for other things that I have been holding on so dearly in my life. My current life, I'm happy with someone like you, I have my friends, I have my family.

I know my folks are aging as years pass by, sometimes I don't know why but can't help feeling upset whenever I see my Dad eating alone. Then out of the blue, I'll just think of the future.. My folks are getting old, they are not even in their fifties anymore. I'm so afraid of that day..that..kay nevermind.

I can't imagine one day what life would be without them. I look at Dad and felt so sad..

 Future...? I don't even have a dream. Not at all. I'm afraid but I've to say so. I'm so upset, when my lecturer asked me about my future plans.

"Talk about our future, like we had a clue." :'(

Future? Well, to me, my future, is not just particularly on my own. Even though I may not have realized what's my goal in my life.. But certainly, deep down in me I know for sure there are a few things, or even people, I know I can't afford to lose any of these. Because once they disappear, I'll be very upset.

I hope people won't leave.

I hope I'm not the only one who's holding on to those happy memories, because I hope someone is there beside me to laugh with me when we talk about the past memories that we have created.

I hope everyone stays happy as who they are. Cos it hurts to see people change. I hope neither of us will drift apart from each other. Cos I don't ever want to only realize the truth at the end of the day that we have drifted apart unknowingly. I don't want all of this to happen. I'm scared.

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