It's been long since I last blogged. Well, just want to vent out some of my frustrations here.
You know, I think I'm getting crazy nowadays. I don't know what's got into me. Whenever I study, I feel very stressed. VERY. Each time I think about the upcoming GCE O level which is just in about 3 months' time or so, I feel as if like I'm suffocating over the truckloads of work and revision assignments.

Perhaps I'm just feeling nervous because of the exam. But no matter what, I sincerely wish that I won't turn into an insane when it comes to studies. I have a difficult time planning what to do. Just like today, I did my maths holiday homework until I teared lah. It was so scary. I wasn't like this in the past. What's got into me? Does anyone know how to help me? ='(

I've no confidence in myself of whether I'll be able to complete ALL my syllabus before the actual exam. I'm really afraid and scared and frightened can. And I just got a dressing-down from my mum for venting out my frustration on my studies and work. I really have no idea what's become of me can? Wo zhen de hen hai pa. :'((((

I tried to calm myself down every now and then. Nowadays, I lose my appetite and my condition isnt getting any better. I just wish and hope that all of these would come to an end NOW.
God, please help me. T.T

I just took a look on the O level exam dates. I can't believe that time has passed SO FAST. I've worked hard, really. But I'm still afraid that I'll get a nervous breakdown as time passes by, especially near the actual exam. *touch wood*

Well, I guess the gist of my problem right now which leads me to frustration is that I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PLAN MY SCHEDULE PROPERLY. Planning of the time table -It's like totally of NO use. Because I simply cant catch up with the time. You get what I mean? It's like for example, I do a math question, if I'm stuck on that particular question, I'd be dead for I'll take a long time to think of the solution. Eventually, my nicely-planned timetable aka study schedule is DESTROYED.

And there goes my anger and frustration. I start to have thoughts like ..... you know? It seems so indescribable. The only thing I know is that I feel very VEXED and CONFUSED, I'm referring to my heart. Really. I've no mood to fool around now. =(

I know it breaks my mum's heart whenever she sees me in this helpless state. Okay, cant believe my eyes are still welled up with tears now. I wonder if I'm the only one like that?
The bottom line is, I feel like I'm beginning to lose confidence in myself and I'm currently stucked in this helpless, vexed and confused state. And I know it's very bad for health also.
I'm getting ill soon.
haix :((((((((( ))))))))):

How do I revise my work???? How do I get rid of this irritating feeling? Wo de ya1 li4 zhen de hao da. :( Mei shi jian le, zen me ban!!!!???! Wo de xin zhen de hen huang lahhhhhhh! T.T

Can you tell me, what should I do?