Today really was a bad day in school for me! I thought it was supposed to turn out to be a pretty good day though. Really felt very depressed and upset over myself today.

We were having D&T lesson and we needed to draw out the artefact for our SA2 result. Well, I've drawn the artefact for more than a thousand times but still, Mr Ng said I still couldn't achieve to the particular standard he wants. Okay nevermind then. So it suddenly dawned on me that I've totally no talent in drawing, not even 0.1% on it alright. Felt extremely dejected at that moment. Somehow I drew the dimensions of the artefact like more than a thousand times okay, and still to him, I guess there's not much improvement on it. Is my drawing really that bad? =( Well, so what to do? I've no talent in drawing, that's why. And I nearly drew until I thought I was gonna go bonkers and start yelling soon. But I know no matter how I still gotta get a hold of myself. Over the past two years, my head's in a whirl. It's just like I've been sleep-walking every day, every minute and every second! I just can't stand myself can.
I don't know what am I doing. Guess I'm really too stressed out, because in my mind, forever it'll automatically think about some unhappy childhood memories of mine. It's like my thinking is forever and ever negative. Why am I always like that? Why can't I change? ):

Nobody understands what I'm thinking about. No wonder horoscope once mentioned that people who are born around March tend to bottle up their feelings. This is true indeed.
My friend said that I've been behaving very strangely in school nowadays. Okay, how the heck I know. This sudden change of me makes my life really miserable. Anyway, I'm not done with the D&T entry yet. The worse part that happened towards the end of the lesson was that I don't even know how to use a scissors to cut just a single sheet of paper. I'm such a flop. I'm a useless bum, seriously. Nearly on the brink of tears. And somehow I guess Mr Ng also misunderstood me, because of the way I spoke I think. He thought I told my classmate to help me write down my name and so he said, "WAH, still need other people to help you write down your name AH,"
SUPER DUPER SAD upon hearing that. Perhaps, perhaps I've thought too deep into it too, but I really don't understand what he was driving at. You know, the tone of his and what did he mean by ''STILL NEED OTHERS TO HELP YOU TO WRITE YOUR NAME?" Okay, firstly, I've never thought of asking my friend to help me write down my name at THAT moment, because I planned to pack all my things first as we couldn't afford to be late for the next lesson. So I intended to pack my things initially and then jot down my name. Uh-huh, and my friend was fast enough to help me write down my name while I was packing the things. And then the teacher started to think ''sideways''? He thought that I was going to ask my friend to help me to write down my name is it?! OR WHAT? The matter doesn't lie with whether I wrote down my name or not, it's just how he thinks of me. I don't wish people to misunderstand me as a useless or lazy bum.

I know I really am a failure. I don't even know how to cut a piece of paper using SCISSORS.
Scissors all right. The scissors wasn't sharp enough BUT my friend could still cut the paper using this pair of scissors. So it goes to show that I really have no idea of HOW to use a scissors?
And the others went HAIYOYO. Was so damn heart-rending luh. For many times I think I've been behaving like an imbecile because... nevermind shall skip this part.

Last week had fever and thankfully I've recovered fast enough. But am having a cough and flu now. Exam is starting THIS Friday, but I've yet fully prepared for the coming EOY. OHMYGOODNESS I feel like ending my life at times, as in I've the thinking man. Somehow thinks that my life isn't worth a dime. T.T
Okay but I know no matter what setbacks I'll be facing I still got to hang on there (:
First and foremost, stress-free please!!!!!!!!! Which subject should I study first?

OH YES, have been missing blogging to bits recently. I'm just so fond of blogging now, can vent out one's frustration =)
One night I was solving a mathematics question and it was driving me nuts because I simply couldn't figure out what the question is talking about. Spent a day figuring out and YES, it's like finally I'd figured it out myself! Was really over the moon at that point in time.
Hmm, felt extremely frustrated and vexed when I was halfway through slowing solving and figuring out myself the stupid darn question. Okay, and I admit that I really burst into tears that day. HAHAHAHAH but it was not the first time anyway, for many reasons that makes me weep has something to do with solving mathematics questions. Erm okay, it's normal to me though. Inherited this from my elder brother luh, cosh my mum once told me in the past when my eldest brother was also solving math question he'd also go nutcase like me. But of course he never cried luh huh.

TV time now, okay see, once again I squander my precious time by doing this kind of stuffs which could have been avoided! If ever I could control myself...