How I wish there is something to spur me on...
Hello bloggie! This is probably my last entry for this month. I'll be going for a long long "vacation".
I'm gonna miss you. ='(
I was actually supposed to go to beach today with my mum and the baby boy's parents. Sad to say, it was cancelled because mum wanted to stay at home and watch tv programme. =((((
I'm bored to death. Well, I've this in mind that I should phone my friends up and call for an outing but I decided not to. Because I don't even know what I'm going to do? I've no idea where to go and what to do? If I go out, I'd just be a wandering soul? =/
I failed to persuade my dad to go out with me. Okay I thought I succeed but out of the sudden his friends rang him up to ask him out for lunch. And of course I didn't stick along. How could I?
A bunch of uncles you know. xD
Okay, so I rot at home for the entire day. It's only up till now that I came online and decided to update my blog. After today, you might never see me again until my Os come to an end.
How I wish I could be spared from this misery! x(
*fingers crossed* wishing myself all the best for Os.
Bye bloggie T.T
Hello, my first post for the month. :)
Life's going to be torturous until mid november. Okay, I've so much to say but I don't know where to begin. Each time I logged in to blog, I will just stare at the blank screen and nothing comes out from my mind. But I know!! I've really got lots of things to say. Just that I've suffered a mental block, probably because of exam.
I've been losing sleep because of Prelim Two, I studied soooo hard, I've put in so much effort, but my result turns out to be bad. Well, I must admit that I've put in effort and done my best. Actually, I didn't really prepare myself well for certain subjects this time round, so this explains why there is de-provement. My L1B4 for Prelim one was 16. Oooooo, my favourite number!! :D
For Prelim 2, I can roughly predict, it's going to be bad. =(
Just one day before part two of Prelim 2, I fell ill and I was down with heavy flu, running nose, blocked nose, high fever and whatsoever. The reason why I fell sick was because of exam again. I know, it must be due to my preparation of prelim two. I forced my brain to absorb and digest all the knowledge that was in my textbook, notes and worksheets, every second without fail. So there were many consecutive days that I turned in at 3am every night. No, it's supposed to be in the morning already. And I've never taken a good rest even in the day. My eyes hurt because it's been glued to the books for a super long time.
Last Saturday, I still vividly remember I slept at 4am because of my art. Perhaps you never know, that being an art student isn't easy. Many things have to be done for our preparatory work. So because of prelim 2, again, I stayed up late in the night to complete my prep work for the exam as soon as possible. There's really no time to slack, nor to take a good break at all.
This is tiring. Anyway, I'm currently still on medication. I've visited the doc twice before the start of the exam. Initially mum told me not to sit for the exam. So she phoned Ms Chen and asked about the resit. But Ms Chen said there's no resit for the papers at all. I've no choice but to sit for the papers. After all, I've studied so hard for chemistry, from day to night and it took up my sleeping time. How could I have not sat for this irritating paper? I die-die also must take this exam!!!!!!
So five days passed. Ms chen told us to take a really really good break for these 3 days. Yes, she's absolutely right. I should put aside all my assessments and revision stuffs and do whatever I feel like doing. Merely 38 days left to the actual exam. But throughout the 38 days, if you're given a chance that you could do anything to relax yourself and get into the right frame of mind for Os, why not?
:D
Hey people, wishing all of you a happy National Day. :)
And all the best for people out there who are taking the O level exam this year, including myself. Hee :D
Mug HARD! ><
I intend to upload pictures here, but blogger faces some problems I guess.
And sy, please cheer up! Hopefully you're alright there. =)
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HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO MY BLOG! IT'S THREE YEARS OLD ALREADY! :D
HELLLLLLLO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
Thanks for your concern, people. I'll brace myself up VERY SOON. :D
Hahahaha.
yay!!!!! another month recorded in archive~! --'
It's been long since I last blogged. Well, just want to vent out some of my frustrations here.
You know, I think I'm getting crazy nowadays. I don't know what's got into me. Whenever I study, I feel very stressed. VERY. Each time I think about the upcoming GCE O level which is just in about 3 months' time or so, I feel as if like I'm suffocating over the truckloads of work and revision assignments.
Perhaps I'm just feeling nervous because of the exam. But no matter what, I sincerely wish that I won't turn into an insane when it comes to studies. I have a difficult time planning what to do. Just like today, I did my maths holiday homework until I teared lah. It was so scary. I wasn't like this in the past. What's got into me? Does anyone know how to help me? ='(
I've no confidence in myself of whether I'll be able to complete ALL my syllabus before the actual exam. I'm really afraid and scared and frightened can. And I just got a dressing-down from my mum for venting out my frustration on my studies and work. I really have no idea what's become of me can? Wo zhen de hen hai pa. :'((((
I tried to calm myself down every now and then. Nowadays, I lose my appetite and my condition isnt getting any better. I just wish and hope that all of these would come to an end NOW.
God, please help me. T.T
I just took a look on the O level exam dates. I can't believe that time has passed SO FAST. I've worked hard, really. But I'm still afraid that I'll get a nervous breakdown as time passes by, especially near the actual exam. *touch wood*
Well, I guess the gist of my problem right now which leads me to frustration is that I DO NOT KNOW HOW TO PLAN MY SCHEDULE PROPERLY. Planning of the time table -It's like totally of NO use. Because I simply cant catch up with the time. You get what I mean? It's like for example, I do a math question, if I'm stuck on that particular question, I'd be dead for I'll take a long time to think of the solution. Eventually, my nicely-planned timetable aka study schedule is DESTROYED.
And there goes my anger and frustration. I start to have thoughts like ..... you know? It seems so indescribable. The only thing I know is that I feel very VEXED and CONFUSED, I'm referring to my heart. Really. I've no mood to fool around now. =(
I know it breaks my mum's heart whenever she sees me in this helpless state. Okay, cant believe my eyes are still welled up with tears now. I wonder if I'm the only one like that?
The bottom line is, I feel like I'm beginning to lose confidence in myself and I'm currently stucked in this helpless, vexed and confused state. And I know it's very bad for health also.
I'm getting ill soon.
haix :((((((((( ))))))))):
How do I revise my work???? How do I get rid of this irritating feeling? Wo de ya1 li4 zhen de hao da. :( Mei shi jian le, zen me ban!!!!???! Wo de xin zhen de hen huang lahhhhhhh! T.T
Can you tell me, what should I do?
HELLLLLLLLLLLO! Just a short entry to keep my blog updated. I've to run to buy supper for my bro. HAHA. :D
Take care :D
